I've been a terrible mother. I have done and said things so many times out of frustration and anger that I regret. Have you ever? I'm telling you that it I have lost it and in the wake of my storm, when all is calm, I become highly convicted about my own behavior despite the reason why I blew a fuse. Then starts the comparison game. I bet my friend who is so sweet and calm all the time, never talks to her kids that way. I bet the preachers wife has never even raised her voice to her kids. I bet my friend from college is the kind of mother that scoops her kids up and has highly effective conversations with her little ones so that they never disobey, never mess with things, never undo hard work, and always hit the laundry basket every single time.
It's amazing to me how personal God can be when I tell Him I need some great wisdom and want to learn something. He doesn't always give me something to share with the masses, because let's face it, our deep inner soul stirring flaws are hard to admit to others. Lately, (maybe its the hot weather) I've been hot. Like a fire cracker ready to go off. I will not make excuses no matter how badly I want to. There just are none. I have been riding on the edge for so long that it doesn't take much for me to stumble. In case you're wondering what is keeping me on the edge I'm talking about...building a house, living in a camper, our life in boxes, 6 kids under our roof. I'd say those things are legit edge keepers for me.
I've been reading about taming the tongue and how bitter water doesn't flow from the same spring as sweet water and all of that. Yes, I'm hearing you Lord. Get it under control, I know, I know. How? Why is this so hard? What is wrong with me? I have the love of Jesus don't I? I have asked for help from the Holy Spirit? I've prayed for self control, peace, and patience. Still, I am finding myself at the end of rant wishing I had said things differently. Wishing I had been more careful with my words. The guilt weighs so heavy sometimes.
The Other Boats Were With HIm
Mark 4:36 "Other boats were with Him... There was not one ship on the sea that evening. The storm was affecting many boats around Him. Other little boats received the calming of the storm too
The Other Boats Had The Storm
the other boats received the calm
What about Your Little Boat?
what about other Little boats?
Is your storm affecting all the other little boats around you? What is taking up all your time and energy, your attention and your resources. Do you assume it's no one else’s business what is going on inside your little boat with your little storm? Have you considered the little boats that might be following you even if you have Jesus to rest with and ask for help? What we do in our little boats has an effect on all the boats around us.
The Little Eyes are watching,